Thursday, December 30, 2010

Learning My World Geography

Unlike many other missionaries who received their call to missions in childhood, I've never felt called to another country, although I've always had an interest in other cultures.  I envisioned my role as someone who supported missions through prayer and finances.

Even though I had not previously experienced a calling from God to a particular ministry, I've had many people prophesy over my life.  The prophecies occurred intermittently over a span of 27 years, carried the same theme and were mostly from people who have never met me before.  One of the most extraordinary prophecies took place one year ago today when I met a wonderful and powerful woman of God (identified by the initials VM).  Within 20 minutes of our meeting for the first time, our conversation went like this:

VM:  Are you called to missions?
CM:  No.
VM:  Are you sure?
CM:  Yes ma'am, I'm sure.  My role is to support missions through prayer and finances.
VM:  Well, would you go, if God called you?
CM:  Yes, IF God called me, which He hasn't.
VM:  Would you go to Asia if God called you?
CM:  Definitely NOT Asia, because my heartbeat is for Africa.
VM:  You're not willing to go to Asia?
CM:  IF God called me to Asia, which He hasn't, then yes I would go.
VM:  You're willing to go.  That's good enough.

Believe me, I was puzzled by this brief interlude which at the time seemed out of sync with the overall conversation we had that day.  That is, until I felt the call to India.  Dummy me, not knowing my world geography very well, did not know India was in Asia.  Imagine my surprise when I got up to speed on my world geography!  Immediately, my mind went back to the conversation I had with VM.  I didn't know whether to laugh or cry.  I believe I did both.  To think that a year ago, God knew His plans for me and revealed it to this precious woman of God.

Jesus said in John 14:2-3, "...I go to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there you may be also."  So many times in the Word of God, we view things as futuristic instead of applying it to the here and now.  This portion of scripture is not only referring to the second coming of Jesus Christ, but it also refers to the spiritual places He has prepared for us today.  Before we ever arrive at a particular place in our walk with God, He has already prepared it for us.  Anything and everything we will need has already been provided for us.  He is simply waiting in that place for us to abide with Him there.

Before I even knew India was located in Asia, God had already prepared this special place for me.  I will simply abide with Him.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Greater Dependency

The visa was approved!  YAY!  What was supposed to take 10 days took almost 6 weeks.  I actually cried with relief when it arrived.  I was seriously getting concerned thinking perhaps I'd put something on the application that had raised a red flag.  Then, I began to wonder if this trip was really the will of God.  Anxiety, doubt and confusion began to set in.  I prayed for clear direction...the visa arrived the same day.

As I progress further into the planning stages of this trip, I'm realizing I will be totally, completely dependent upon God and others for everything: transportation, food, shelter, language, culture, safety, etc.  The realization is making me feel very vulnerable, a feeling I am not comfortable with, yet it is what I prayed for.  Well, I didn't actually pray for vulnerability; I prayed for a greater dependency upon God.  Duh!  Greater dependency = vulnerability.

Being vulnerable is a good thing because through my weakness HIS strength is made perfect, bringing glory and power to HIM.  When I am weak (vulnerable), then I am strong (intead of strong-willed).  It's all about HIM.

"And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.  Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong."  II Corinthians 12:9-10